unfocused, scattered

i feel really unfocused, scattered right now. 

 

it's not like the feeling of being lost, 2005

or doing things that i know aren't really for me, 2006.

it's not feeling despair and failure, 2007.

 

it's feeling like i can do anything, but wanting everything. 

 

it reminds me of priscilla.  at one point earlier this year, she said randomly, "keep it together.  i'm a strong, smart woman.  i can do it all."  i say the same thing to myself when i walk to work.