wknd report

feeling sleepy, feeling thirsty.  don't know why.

 

watched debate.  camping a bit south of big sur -- pretty stars, good food. 

 

a little buggy and headachy this weekend.

 

need to figure out when is the best time to go home for the holidays.

rush to the end

it's the end of september, and i already feel the rush to get to the end of the year. 

gre, spain-morocco, palm springs retreat, turkey 3.0 party, thanksgiving, holiday party, christmas, new years.  

 

it feels hard to get anything new done or to change directions in the fall-winter.

notes

• brunch with matt at mama's, brunch with girls at frisee
• sushi-zone and orbit room
• cartoon art museum
• studying

palin, pt. 2

i'm elevating my response to the palin post comments: flora, naureen, and michael discuss here.

i don't disagree with any of their policy-related comments. i don't think i agree with palin on any issue. and i would never vote mccain-palin.

that said, there's something really nice about her "story", especially pre-gibson (which i didn't watch, but i read about). that's not a reason to vote for her, of course.

but it's interesting to think what about her tugs at my heartstrings? her story, not as a some politician, but as a working mom who "gets" things that people face day to day. politics start at a boring, local level -- people want their children to have educations, they want a stable source of income, and they have to reconcile their beliefs with their actions every day. her "story" shows that. yeah, it's mostly spin, it's anti-intellectual, it's suburban-rural (and therefore anti-me), but even knowing that, i still like her. or maybe i like that story.

when i say she's not to be dismissed, i don't mean that we should take her policy stances seriously. i mean that a lot of people feel connected to her, and there's something to that. that's it really.

re sexuality and achievement
maybe it's an old fashioned feminist kind of thing to think, women have to make choices that men don't have to face because of their sexuality. many women make serious decisions to slow down or stop their careers because they want to have children -- they are paid less, they advance slower, they take positions with less responsibility. (men do too but i still think to a lesser extent, and there's the physical burden of 9 month pregnancy.)

re palin is like bush in worldview
probably, yes. bush doesn't tug at my heartstrings, though. i don't know if he's ever tugged anyone's heartstrings, which is the difference. she has cultural appeal. for me, it might just really be because she's a strong woman.

solid

• eat.  shalimar, pancakes, applewood, pomelo.
  
• educate.  learning the ropes.  the videos are fascinating (and funny) in so many ways.
• bike.  wobbly but alive.
• suburban-ize.  sun tour, keplers, yogurt stop.  how do i manage to still go back to the south bay so much?
• party.  rude cosmos and company.
• catch.  the police found us in a park.  after sunset.  in the car.  like we were fifteen or something.
• study.
• clean.
  

sarah palin's appeal

michael pointed me to two well-articulated articles on the subject here and here. 

 

thoughts?

 

 

 

 

here it is, the weekend post

relaxed week, relaxed weekend:

• l'ardoise, man on wire, and sitting on my roof with matt
• kookez for brunch and gre studying
• climbing, picnic in dolores park, bi-rite ice cream, spain-morocco planning, and thai take out.

i like this pace.

 

brain, thursday edition

• smiling.  i finally figured out why i dislike one of my co-workers.  it's because he never smiles!  what about smiling makes us trust or like people?
• bed head.  when i sleep alone, i sleep in the middle of my bed.  it took about a year to feel comfortable with that.  feels good.
• tactless.  i've been, perhaps, a bit impatient and insensitive to a couple of friends about relationships in the past few weeks.  maybe also abrasive and uncompromising.
• lesson learned, again.  no matter how correct and timely your work is, if it is poorly packaged (typos, inconsistent formatting) it'll get picked apart.  note to self, take the extra steps to really finish things.
• jealousy and the fear of abandonment.  hard feelings to deal with.  what can you do with it except to try to let it go?
• doing it.  i yelled excitedly to michael last night, "i have a new life plan!  i'm going to take the gre!"  then i realized, that's not a life plan, but that's thinking 2 months in advance, which is more than i usually do.  small steps, right?

let go

i did it, finally!

for me, it was mainly about letting go--not getting so hung up on thinking about how it might be scary, not really thinking at all.

:)





busy work week, nice weekend:

• skydiving with sydney
• gregoire, love at first bite, and cheeseboard with sydney; met up with alicia and eugene
• universal cafe and simple dinner with matt
• sleeping in, marin hike, barbeque, and talking with matt
• catch up with parents