brain, wednesday edition

today, a mix:

• school.  how do career considerations fit with educational plans?
• money.  how much is enough to live comfortably, to feel financial secure, and to have a family?
• leisure and travel.  how do i balance that with possibly having to work very hard, going to school, or not having too much money. 
• matt.  he is always kind of lingering in the back of my head.  will i be able to figure all of this out and come up with some solution that keeps him in my life?  i try to consider my career stuff without thinking of him but it's very hard. i keep reminding myself:  career stuff is important to me, and i have to make my life the way i want it.  that's the only way i will be happy in the long-term. 
• overcommit.  i have a hard time estimating what i'm capable of doing.  i either think that something can't be accomplished, or more often, believe that i can do it all.  i can do it all, but not without sacrificing being a stable-happy person and sleep.
• priorities.  i can only pay attention to three things at once.  right now it's my current job, matt, and future job/education stuff.  that means taproot and my friends have slid off the radar:  my list of people to call back and volunteer stuff to do keeps growing every day.
• desperation.  summer waning.  strawberries and peaches about to be gone.  and apples, forever!  noooo...!