gregory, this guy i dated very briefly, im'd me yesterday. he told me about this cooking show's theme song, which reminded him of me: "you can do whatever you want, make yourself feel good." to him, i am happy-optimistic i suppose.
i spent much of today sulking at work. i don't really know where my bad mood came from or where i should have redirected it to. the day started badly with my officemates' bad moods, falling asleep on the couch like an old man the night before, waking up in the middle of the night because i dreamt that one of my friends raped me. it was made worse by my indecision about weekend plans, a random question from matt, a general sense that maybe everything i value is wrong, and depressing conversations with coworkers.
i feel irritated that i am affected by other people's negativity and pessimism. people are so quick to complain. i understand it's a way of bonding, but eh. i finally hashed it out a little with matt, who reassured me that i'm not an alien to think the way i think, even though i often feel like i am. have more confidence, right?
i spent much of today sulking at work. i don't really know where my bad mood came from or where i should have redirected it to. the day started badly with my officemates' bad moods, falling asleep on the couch like an old man the night before, waking up in the middle of the night because i dreamt that one of my friends raped me. it was made worse by my indecision about weekend plans, a random question from matt, a general sense that maybe everything i value is wrong, and depressing conversations with coworkers.
i feel irritated that i am affected by other people's negativity and pessimism. people are so quick to complain. i understand it's a way of bonding, but eh. i finally hashed it out a little with matt, who reassured me that i'm not an alien to think the way i think, even though i often feel like i am. have more confidence, right?
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