hugs not bugs

• it's easier to hug people i don't know than people i am close to. in fact, i rarely hug my close friends, and when i do, i just feel awkward.
  
• i try to hug my sister. we both end up patting each other on the back and laughing.
  
• i think about how often i've tried to say goodbye to people and end up waving vigorously instead of leaving with a hug.
  
• you gotta worry about a lot of things! one arm versus two arms. arm placement -- do you do an equal hug (one arm under the other person's arm, one arm over the other person's arm) or the more intimate both arms around the neck or waist?
  
• there is the drunken hug. in my case, it's one arm around the waist and my head on (usually) her shoulder. i'm bad at conveying affection, but there it is!
• the hug i am worst at is the sympathy hug. people do it to me sometimes -- one arm with a rub on the back. it's nice. i can never pull it off for other people.
  

• on a somewhat related note, i found a silly book, seduction, that my roommate michael gave to me many years ago. it's about seducing boys. it makes me laugh because a. it's a retarded book and b. he now says roommate variations of the things he's been saying for years (think, "i hope you come home with a boy" or "i hope you sleep in someone else's bed tonight").