hi ho, hi ho, it's off to work i go...

this is what i thought about when i drove to work this morning:

• how do i calculate damages to bondholders?  shit, did i do it correctly?
• the person in the left lane is driving 60mph.  i hate him.  oh, it's because there's a highway patrolman.  thank you, slow driver.
• will i be able to con a friend into eating yogurt with me?  yogurt is delicious. 
• i should eat more calcium and go to the gym.
• i like the cult of rusty wells, who teaches "bhakti yoga," the "yoga of devotion" on sunday mornings.
• as much as i love electrelane's album, "no shouts, no calls" and spoon's "gagagagaga," it's really time to get some new music.
• my reading list is really long.  additions since december 2007: bastard of istanbul, little women, the nine, and robert haas' new book of poetry.  how will i ever get through them all?
• what if i see eric in the office today? how will it make me feel and am i okay with that?  why am i still reluctant to go to parties where he might show up?
• i read a compilation of people's lists at a bookstore this weekend.  one person wrote, "what if my life is not extraordinary?  does that mean i'm a failure?" i've often felt like too.
• wondering which friends i would stick with if it "came down to it," and coming up with a prioritized list (ridiculous) of people i would defend / stay loyal to.  besides my family matt tops the list.  then thinking, i bet he is at the top of many people's lists.  he is everyone's best friend.
  
• often, i think i care more about people than they care about me.
  
• thinking about a younger coworker's remark that i am naively optimistic.  that's not true, is it?
• should i call john to see what he wants from starbucks?  but if i call, he will know that i'm not in the office even though it is 9:45.
• i should wake up earlier.  i should get a new job.